Thanking God through the tears isn’t an easy thing to do. Tonight as I sit in my comfy chair, that my sweet husband picked out, I am overwhelmed with emotions as I take the time for remembering and looking through the priceless treasures in my heart.
Three years ago this morning, Will Pershing got down on one knee, which wasn’t easy for him because he had bad knees, and asked me to marry him and walk with him on the journey of life that God would take us on as a family. With tears of joy streaming down my face I said, “Yes! Yes! Yes! I love you so much!”
And he slipped the most beautiful ring on my finger. A ring that is a family heirloom that belonged to an aunt that meant so much to him but who passed on to heaven in the years before, so I was never able to meet her…but heard wonderful stories! A ring that symbolized his love for me and our love and commitment to each other. I helped him to his feet and he wrapped me in his amazing arms and held me close and kissed me.
We weren’t alone in that moment. Little Michael was almost two years old at that point and he was not about to be left out and jumped up to get in on the hugging too. LOL Michael fell in love with Will the moment he met him. And Will was in love with the boys just as much as he was in love with me. He fell in love with us and we had the amazing blessing of becoming a part of his family.
We went into the other room and he sat down and talked with Josh (age 6 at the time) and told him that he loved me and he loved them and that he had asked me to marry him and he asked him if he would be OK with him becoming his daddy. Josh was thrilled. He wrapped his arms around Will’s neck and said, “Well, Yeah!”
Will became engaged to US and I became engaged to him and his beautiful daughter, Annelyse (Annie). It was about 10:00pm when we were able to call Annie from Will’s parents’ house that night. I got to tell her and her response was one I will never forget. LOL She said, “Finally! It’s about time!” My heart smiles every time I remember that conversation.
And now our relationship grows even stronger as we grow closer and as we walk this path of facing each new day and new experience with daddy in heaven.
Our engagement began as it should…in the middle of family. It followed the pattern of our courtship. We spent most of our time during our courtship surrounded with two or three of our children almost every moment or surrounded with my dear in-laws at their home, or with friends from our churches.
Will courted me so well. I had never felt so cherished and like a princess…which, by the way, is what he used to call me…his princess. (tears) And that is how he treated me, through out courtship, engagement and our marriage. I can still hear his voice as he would take me in his arms and hold me close to him, “I love you, princess.”
I am so very, very thankful for every moment of our courtship and for the amazing feeling of being engaged to such a precious, man of God. The little over three years we had together were the very best years of my life. And I will always thank God for bringing us into each others’ lives.
We had many challenges that we faced…we both brought baggage from previous marriages…we both brought health problems that affected our lives…but we both brought strong relationships with our Lord Jesus and we knew that by relying on him and through our strong friendship with each other and commitment to never giving up…we would be just fine. It wasn’t always easy, but the best thing was that every trial we faced…we faced together and they brought us closer to each other and to God. But the lessons we learned together and overcoming obstacles made every celebration, big and small, even sweeter!
And we both held onto this promise of God…
8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12: 8-10 ESV
We were very big on celebrating big and small anniversaries. We celebrated the anniversary of the first time we spoke on the phone. We celebrated the anniversary of the first time we met in person. We celebrated the anniversary of our first kiss. And we celebrated the anniversary of the day he proposed to us.
Although I have been teary as I have been remembering today…I have also been thanking God for every single moment, every single lesson I learned, every single trial we faced together and grew closer to God and each other through. I have been thanking him for the amazing time of courtship and engagement. And tonight, when I went to write this second article in my “Thanking God through the Tears” series…I knew I had to share what I am experiencing tonight. I know that I am not alone. I am emotional, but at the same time I have peace and a heart filled with joys and priceless treasures to hold close to my heart always. As I said to a friend a few months ago. He is still my dear husband…we just live in different zip codes for right now.
I feel the arms of my husband around me tonight.
I feel the arms of my heavenly Father holding me close and comforting me.
I felt the love of my beautiful step-daughter as we chatted on Facebook and remembered earlier this evening.
And tonight as I shared with Josh and Michael why mommy started to cry during our read aloud time, both of them immediately came over and wrapped their little arms around me and reminded me that it is OK to cry and together we shared how much we miss Daddy and how we are here to hug each other when we need to be reminded that we are not alone…and we grew closer together as mother and sons.
I am not alone. I am surrounded with so much love. And I have so very much to be thankful for.
Thank you for taking a few moments to walk with me as I thank God through my tears tonight.
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